hAIR gOALS... vISUAL

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Body Goals

i saw my picture... again last week... and i did not like what I saw... the only person who can change what i see is me!! ...in the words of Effie White...

"I am changing...Trying every way I can... I'll be better than I am.

Seeing everything so clear...I'm gonna start right now right here."

and... in that spirit... my body goals are as follows...

• My Physical Goals
• sleek outline
• look less full around arms and chest
• no back fat
• no stomach fat
• no arm jiggle
• full split with either leg forward
• full straddle
• full range of motion
• swim suit - 2 piece confidance
• slimmer thighs
• no dimpled legs
• jog from home to forest hill and back by december 25th (5 miles)
• 10 miles round trip
• wear size 8 jeans/pants
• be a medium in tops/dress sizes
• where what ever i want
• My Physical Feeling Goals
• energetic
• limber
• no loss of breath

and... what i will do to achieve my boy goals... starting now...

• no sodas
• salads every other day
• green juice smoothies on Monday, Wednesday and Friday
• work out Mon, Wed, Fri mornings... 
• 5am workout eventually alternating between jogging and walking daily
• P90X night workout

of course this plan of action my augment and change BUT my goals ain't.

Jones means...

REJOICING. Such people have absolute personality and follow their mind instead of their heart. They have desires and work hard to fulfill their dreams.

so... i kinda read this book...

last week... i decided to choose a book to listen to. I really love hoopladigital.com because it free and it IS free. I thought this would be another "you can do it!! YES!! book. I was presently surprised... i will definitely be re-reading this book ALOT this year. Thank Rachel. i appreciate you honety and pain. thank you for sharing... and giving me hope.

Lord, Help.

This is not the life that I thought I was going to live... and to top it all off... my life has been stagnant for a while... I need change... But, separating myself?? I usually withdraw from everyone when I feel left out... But this cannot be my default response to hurt feelings.

Lord... I need you to quiet my spirit. So, I can hear you. Lord, I did not like when Apostle said that you don't talk that much. I just felt like... You do speak alot... But through different mediums and methods.

Lord... I'm going to be 40 years old... and I have what? What do I have to show for it? What have I done that is meaningful? How has my life gotten better? My life HAS to be more than being Veronica's mother.

I think that I really need to move. West Palm Beach... It's just not FOR me...