Out with the old...

So... met up with an old friend of mine, with whom i thought we could be in a relationship. I had planned to keep everything PG but it ended up with a higher rating. I did not think this encounter through. I cannot meet with a man who I KNOW does not share my beliefs, ideals and dreams in an intimate settings. This man and others like him are not bad people. They are not for me.

https://youtu.be/3v3T_KxvFyM

I have been afraid that I will end up alone for a long time. I cannot let fear ruin my reputation, honesty, integrity and walk with God. I have to be honest with God, myself and others.

Truth Nugget #1 - I want to be happily married.
Truth Nugget #2 - I want companionship.
Truth Nugget #3 - I want God to let me know if i'm going to be a spinster for the rest of my life... like... If I ain't be to be no wife... PLEASE... let me know. Let me know-ow. (Aaliyah voice over)
Truth Nugget #4 - I want a honeymoon... like super fabulous... Fiji/Australia/Aspen...

Declaration Nugget #1 - My husband is a Man of God, who hears God's voice and actively attends church, prays and worships God in spirit and in truth.
Declaration Nugget #2 - My marriage is a ministry.
Declaration Nugget #7 - My husband ministers to me and my family members through his life and speech.
Declaration Nugget #8 - My husband is handsome!!