Friday, Morning...🙏

Lord this is so crazy. It's like I don't even understand what's going on! All I know is that I be feeling so so lonely sad and isolated like I'll never have friends nobody would love me no one wants to be my friend and I'm not lovable. But I do know that has to be alive there's no way I was created to just not be loved by anybody. God I know your love is real and I just feel like your love has got to be the answer to this like why am I so yucky feeling why do I feel so sad. Am I even in the right place show me what I need to do. It's like I can't keep a job I don't get along with people and it's not because I'm yelling and fussing or cursing or anything like that it's just that whole fake it's just not a good fit mess. That's exactly what's going on in my life I do not want to live this stupid simple what the hell is going on. I need things to change for me and I do not know what to do I swear I don't know where to begin I'm upset. I'm frustrated. I'm angry. I'm lonely. I'm sad. I want companionship but I don't want to be with no joker. Help please Lord what am I supposed to be doing. You say a man ought to always pray and not faint. Lord I'm going to wait on you I have to. I do not have any other choices I have to make this work because you are the answer. I believe your word I believe what you tell me through your word Lord if you don't ever speak to me don't get no Goosebumps it don't matter the Bible is real I'm putting my life on it it's real it works help. Lord, please please please help me! I don't want to die and live an unfulfilled life. I don't want to die lonely and alone and empty on the inside of myself. I don't know how to be a friend anymore. I refuse to believe that I am mean and hateful but if that's the truth about me God show me please.