Quality Time...

God, can I have quiet time with you. Like the way Bai Qian and Ye Hua hang out. Can we have that kind of time together.

Be the Person You Are...

Good Morning...

God, I thank you for your grace, mercy and strength. It is through your mercy and faithfulness that I can do ANYthing at all. You have given me a family and I WILL appreciate them and cherish them. Change me Lord to be like you. Replace my stony selfish heart with you living moving heart. Increase my capacity to love, honor, respect and obey your word and your precepts.

Be the Person You Are... Be the Person YOU Dream of becoming... Become
Song "You Move Mountain... You cause walls to fall"

11-16-18 Priceless Honor -> The Vault of Worship

Dance Destiny

• deep intense worship
• world-wide travel
• minister of the Word of God

Panel Discussion Notes

• God asked Adam where he was AFTER he fell/lost his identity
• leaders MUST
• learn true worship
• model true worship for their members
• be transparent before GOD

Additional Panel Discussion Notes

• TEN CUIDADO
• be careful with SONship comes testing
• lords/owners vs fathers

11-16-2018 OKIMCA Panel Notes - Honor the Message

Honor the Message

• www.canva.com - professional designs on the go!
• https://www.ekklesia360.com/
• Church Websites powered by the Ekklesia360 Content Management System. We build easy to use, beautiful church websites that get ministry results.
• fiverr.com
• every church needs a website
• the gateway to your church
• the best leadership tools - CELLPHONE!
• facebook
• google business profile
• pretty pics
• best foot forward
• google reviews
• ask for google reviews!! 5 star only!!
• get rid of old/bad pics/videos
• check-in - modern day evangelism
• PULL OUT YOUR PHONE!
• build in new culture at school!!!
• social media logos on all signage
• never dishonor your human resources!!
• personal - anthing goes
• church - EXCELLENCE only
• spelling grammar very important
• social media department
• 2 sections: Staff and Volunteers to model appropriate social media protocols
• model behavior to correct the culture of the church members and visitors
• don't be afraid!
• don't waste time!
• Get professional help
• Social Media allows you to PINPOINT and target particular audiences

Let patience have her perfect work...

today at Bible Study...
God taught us through Apostle Collymore the importasnce of patirnce having her perfect work. I swear I am struggling with patience and action... what am i supposed to be doing? what is up with my daughter? how do I clear my thoughts and focus? How is anything to get done... Lord. I need help getting my mind right. It needs to be disciplined to submit itself under the knowledge of God.

I hate and love my parents... sometimes all I hear and feel is their influence... where am I in the midst of their voices echoing disapproval in my ears. I am undisciplined bacuse it is the cheapest way to spoil and care for myself.

I was so confident when I was younger... I didn't run and hide from confrontation like I do now... what am I to do to... please God. I don't trust my own personality.

So... What am I waiting for?

God, I really can't be deep right now. I am jealous of all of these seemingly happy women out there. I want a healthy relationship with a man who will be my husband and yes, sex, is a big part... okay... partof that. I want to be needed and loved andpart of something where I feel and touch someone else. I don't want what they have. I want what you have for me. Yes, Lord, I am selfish and vain and feeling sorry for myself. God, help me. I think I only feel this way so strongly because our relationship is not where I think it should be. I feel like I've been missing you. I feel like I keep missing you. I am in the right activities, but GOD where is our connection? Am I allowed to feel you near? What do I need to fix? I'm serious.

I'm not in relationships because I need and want both of us to fear God. I need/want a man who can truly guide me and my family into a closer walk with God. I want a priest for my household. Lord, if this is not the path that you have for me. I accept and willingly obey you and what you want for my life. Lord, teach me, lead me, love me, guide me into being content in every situation that I am in.

Lord, what do in my life needs mastery and attention? Where should I direct my efforts. Help me not to be so jealous of intimate relationships. I don't want to be jealous of close friends and husbands and wives or boyfriends and girlfriends. Lord, please, stop me from being so desperate at least for anything besides you.

God, seriously. What gives?

     I've been the odd man out most of my life... in elementary and before... it did not matter much... I had intrinsic happiness and support from my family. i was kinda the odd ball in the family too. I loved ballet and read the dictionary.  Middle, High, College, Adult life have been a hamster wheel of isolation. I have always been, a loner, eccentric, artsy, standoffish... but now... i am lonely. i don't have any friends. i don't hang with anyone. i don't like this. i don't have a boyfriend or man in my life. Noone appears interested. I've been told i look mean. What am i supposed to do. I am deathly lonely. God... your name is I AM. Can you be I AM your friend. I AM your comfort. Lord, can i have some actual people friends or nah?
     What am i doing so wrong? I don't want to just get along because of ministry or work obligations. my life is so empty. no job to hide at. No Mooka to keep me company. No men or dating. Lord, help. God are you isolating me or did I build a wall and not realize it. God, PLEASE. Talk to me. When them old people said God would be your friend. Were they lying? Where are my friends?
     I need to find people who do what I like to do.
     When I get home from wherever I've been. Who do i share that with. If work was hard today, who do i tell? Why do i have to be so understanding and try to listen? No one every really wanted me. Veronica's father did not even like me... he just did what he always does with women and I was stupid enough to believe him and get pregnant.

The view outside my window

I will always remember living here... But the lessons I've learned... Are Priceless...

Faith and Belief - Day One - It begins here...

• I am getting a New Car and Luxury Home by Faith and through action THIS YEAR 2018!!
• My car will be the car I want!! My home will have amenities that I love. 
• I will take the steps toward car and home ownership.
• I will allow GOD to be GOD and the adult in my life. I will be the obedient and mature child who listens and obeys swiftly.
• I will loose and lose 50 pounds this year and become much more flexible through diet and exercise.
• I will have a daily spirit walk with GOD. (My goal is an hour a day.)
• I will have a great and awesome job that I enjoy and pays me what i deserve while launching my second business. My second business will grow beyond exponentially and exceed my expectations.
• My tithe and offering will NEVER lack.
• I will be able to commit to supporting my favorite ministries again.
• OKI
• Joyce Meyers
• Bishop Leroy Thompson
• My OWN Ministry - i WILL dance again
• Pastor Aventer Gray's Dance Ministry

🌅🎤🎶

When I was waking I heard...

• "I will lift up my eye to the hills from wence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord. The Lord who made Heaven and Earth. He said he would not suffer thy foot, thy foot to be moved. The Lord that keepeth thee, he doth not slumber nor sleep. For the Lord is thy keeper. The Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand, upon thy right hand..."
• "Whom shall I fear? Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life. Whom shall I fear?"

i am so angry! - June 1, 2018

i am so mad. My daughter celebrated her 5th grade award ceremony today. She did not want to pose for the pictures. she did not let me know it was today. i hate that my support system for her sucks!! i want a new one... how do i go about finding a new support system. I don't want to sit around and agree about stuff... i don't want to sit around and complain. i want steps and an action plan.... and i dont have a job or any amount of savings... where is my money...

life plan hack... answer these questions for real

Spend a few minutes remembering—and writing down—those big things you are aiming for. Get your clarity back. It might just make all the difference in the world! 

1. where am I going
2. ... and why does it matter? 
3. What are your long-term goals and dreams?
4. Have you thought about them lately?
5. Do you even know?
6. Why are they important to you?
7. Why do you do what you do?

The Sinner's Prayer...

How am I to do the work of an evangelist?

Sample Sinner’s Prayer 

•  Dear God, I know I’m a sinner. I know my sin deserves to be punished. I believe Christ died for me and rose from you grave. I trust Jesus alone as my Savior. Thank you for the forgiveness and everlasting life I now have. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Simplified for Younger Children

• Jesus, I know that you made me and want me to obey you with all my heart. I know I have disobeyed and wanted to be my own boss. I have thought and done things against your directions. I am sorry. I know that you gave up his life to save me from these sins and make me your child again. I accept your promises and ask you to please save me now and forever. Amen. 

Billy Graham Version

• Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior. In Your Name. Amen.

Campus Crusade for Christ 

• Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.

Biblical Example (from Jesus)

• Luke 18:13 contains the prayer of the tax collector, as told by Jesus. This parable shows that heart felt repentance is much more important than the particular formula of words. But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’

thank you https://ministry-to-children.com/sinners-prayer/ for the inspiration fro this post =)

Friday, Morning...🙏

Lord this is so crazy. It's like I don't even understand what's going on! All I know is that I be feeling so so lonely sad and isolated like I'll never have friends nobody would love me no one wants to be my friend and I'm not lovable. But I do know that has to be alive there's no way I was created to just not be loved by anybody. God I know your love is real and I just feel like your love has got to be the answer to this like why am I so yucky feeling why do I feel so sad. Am I even in the right place show me what I need to do. It's like I can't keep a job I don't get along with people and it's not because I'm yelling and fussing or cursing or anything like that it's just that whole fake it's just not a good fit mess. That's exactly what's going on in my life I do not want to live this stupid simple what the hell is going on. I need things to change for me and I do not know what to do I swear I don't know where to begin I'm upset. I'm frustrated. I'm angry. I'm lonely. I'm sad. I want companionship but I don't want to be with no joker. Help please Lord what am I supposed to be doing. You say a man ought to always pray and not faint. Lord I'm going to wait on you I have to. I do not have any other choices I have to make this work because you are the answer. I believe your word I believe what you tell me through your word Lord if you don't ever speak to me don't get no Goosebumps it don't matter the Bible is real I'm putting my life on it it's real it works help. Lord, please please please help me! I don't want to die and live an unfulfilled life. I don't want to die lonely and alone and empty on the inside of myself. I don't know how to be a friend anymore. I refuse to believe that I am mean and hateful but if that's the truth about me God show me please.

5th grade - 2018 - LC Swain c/o 2021

This year, 2018, has been beyond weird, trying, difficult and hard and happy and awesome. my daughter will be leaving elementary school and embarking on a middle school adventure... Lord, equip me. Last Saturday, the day before Mother’s Day, veronica fought. She got into her 1st fight in my neighborhood. a boy was trying to bully her friends. she stood up to him and he hit her, but she did not back down. she fought. I am proud, sad and scared, because I have never been in a physical altercation. How can I lead and guide her where I've never been? you know what? I'm just going to trust God.

ShaTina... your name means??

What does you name say about you?? Quiz Link

You are bold and courageous.

You are usually the best at whatever you do...you strive for perfection. You are self-assured, authoritative and aggressive. You are chilled out and you go with the flow. You are open and easygoing. Virtually nothing could shake the calm world you live in. You are so happy and content that people around you ask themselves what your secret is. You are friendly, charming and kind. You get along with almost anyone. You try hard not to rub people the wrong way. You know how to bring people together. Sometimes, you are a bit superficial and irresponsible; however, when faced with important matters, you know how to pull yourself together. You are incredibly sexy and sensitive, but you have a pesky feature which shouldn't be overlooked: your passion is so insatiable that you are no stranger to cheating. You can either fight it or give up. It's all in your hands.

Kenny Rogers...

You got to know when to hold 'em,
know when to fold 'em
Know when to walk away and know when to run

You never count your money
when you're sittin' at the table
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealing's done

Every gambler knows
that the secret to survivin'
Is knowin' what to throw away and knowing what to keep

Cause every hand's a winner and every hand's a loser...

"there is wisdom everywhere... but can you see it? wisdom is calling... can you hear it?"
-Umble Amazon

Dear God... Your Will Be Done...

🔆so... I'm glad that my God has me and keeps me in the Palm of HIS ✋!!
🔆 Lord, I guess it's time to just pick up and go somewhere else... Veronica is graduating from elementary school this year... I would love to relocate💯💯💯
🔆Being honest... Maybe John Gray Nem church... Winner's Church?
🔆 God... I am going to start exercising regularly!! ...as well as meditation and prayer... I want to hear and obey... Everyday!

Help

Today was BOOONKEY. I was annoyed at the lateness of the other members. I was 💯 uncomfortable with how u was to lead... I don't get it... But... I'll be obedient. I was unsure of the worship song... Because I didnt want to pick the wrong song...

I am at the same brick wall I always hit.
What you mean God where God is leading???
I have never been sure of ANYTHING like that...
Pray more... Okay... Just Pray More...

Where is everyone???

Pet-ential

so... I've always wanted a dog or two... as an adult this dream almost cam true but my dog was a little to vicious... i had to place him up for adoption.. sad face... but... i am READY!!

Habits... its changing time!!!

examine yourselves... learn your triggers and change behaviors!!
replace your rewards with positivity instead of negativity!!

Mind, Body and Soul

Apparel and products to feed the mind, body and soul... MBΣ, Inc... i will design and make what i like and share it with others!!
I Love to wear boat neck sweaters, unfinished neck sweatshirts, candles, stationary, pens, scarfs, hats, earring, jewelry:

• M - Mind - My - Mediate   - Manifest
• B  - Body - Best - Breathe   - Build
• Σ  - Soul  - Self - Satisfaction - Support

2020 Vision!!!

THIS is what the year 2020 will look like for me!! and HOW to make it so!!

Books i wanna read that AINT been written

• how to get the BEST and REALEST relationship with God
• my hair really aint grow for 10year... BUTT NOW!! (pun intended)
• how to stay grounded in individuallity and still embrace others
• i NEED a job now... but i want a career later... like next year…
• how to get PPO dental and other awersome health coverage... with $
• i hear GOD... do you
• how I KNOW GOD said to do it
• i love my child... but she need help
• how to struture your childs life without ENDING yours
• your child is NOT more important, precious, special, deserving, better, worthy than You
• you dont die cuz your child are born
• YOU MATTER... CUZ (i said so)
• daily positive affirmation give
• one from me... and then one from you
• living as a single christian... and i aint bitter or wishing for a "better" life
• who to be young, saved and NOT bored on the weekends!!

Website Editor... job specs

Description 

• Travelzoo is a global media commerce company. 
• With 25 offices and more than 28 million members in Asia Pacific, Europe and North America, 

 The Website Editor (Publisher) will 

• oversee the Company's responsive website. 
• This role will collaborate with teams to enhance the user experience and drive engagement. Candidates for this position should possess 
• previous experience managing websites. The ideal candidate will have a
• keen eye for detail and deep analytics expertise. This individual will 
• provide continuous feedback and work closely with the Publishing and Product teams to ensure a seamless user experience for Travelzoo members. 

 Responsibilities include but not limited to:

• Manage and monitor Travelzoo website, mobile applications, tags, and quick links 
• Update Travelzoo homepages daily and build custom pages for specific campaigns
• Responsible for QA testing and coordination of monthly meetings with product team for website enhancements and upgrades
• Proactively measure and understand how the audience interacts with Travelzoo’s website; perform data-driven prioritization of features that meet audience needs
• Understand role of Publishing staff; act as a backup on an as-needed basis

 Requirements

• 4 year degree in Journalism or related field; Master’s degree preferred 
• 5+ years managing a website
• Working knowledge of Google Analytics, Tableu, and blogging platform required
• User focused mentality; should have a critical eye and high standards
• Strong interpersonal skills and ability to work effectively with teams across the company
• Combination of creative and analytical skills
• Ability to manage time and multi-task under tight deadlines 

 We offer:

• Competitive salary and benefits
• Medical, Dental and Vision • 401(k) plan • Entrepreneurial culture with global career development opportunities
• Travel perks, including an annual stipend and extra vacation days to experience
•  Travelzoo's deals If you are a globally-minded professional who thrives in a collaborative environment and values a meaningful career, then we want to work with you! 

i just wanna

• play guitar... bass guitar too
• sew all of my cool and cute clothes
• knit sweaters and mottens and scarfs for friends and family
• dance again... help
• be in the best physical/spiritual shape of my life
• paint

Business Mogul - Me!

i need a venue that i can use peerspace or something else to rent it out!!
i need a home that i can rent as well...

God's Rhema Word

How do I know it's my time?? (St. Paul MBC in Delray Bch, FL)

1. Stay faithful... In HIS Word
• "They" can't see it cuz God wasn't talking to them
• Talk and to the HIM
2. Stay focused.
• walk in HIS Word and don't worry about the results
• we walking to change us... Not our circumstances
• God is getting me ready for the blessing.
• are you comfortable in your crisis? Are you a coping? or a conquering?
• sometimes you need to just watch yo mouth... Hush...
• don't mess yo self up...
• Don't talk to them...  talk to Him... Just a li'l talk with Jesus makes it right
3. Stay favored.
• you are ALREADY favored... don't lose it!
• After the walking... Worshipping IS the key!!
• Shout before you get it... BEcauze WHO gave it to you... GOD!!!
• WHILE you worship... God IS WORKING.

•••••••°°°°°°°•••••••°°°°°°°•••••••°°°°°°°•••••••

First... 40 years of walking to...

Second... 7 years of walking around...

Third... Now, walk in!!

•••••••°°°°°°°•••••••°°°°°°°•••••••°°°°°°°•••••••

No More Sodas... but... I want SNACKS... please. =)

Common Obstacles

• Too busy in the morning (for breakfast) or evening (for dinner)
• You’re starving, and you cave in, and look for something convenient
• You don’t have time to plan meals or shop for a lot of things
• struggling to learn how to eat all unprocessed, healthy foods
• You have to eat out at work, often more than once
• You don’t plan ahead to have healthy foods in the house
• Other things seem more important, so you don’t spend the time or energy on healthy food
• Shopping just seems too hard, where to you find this "BETTER" — you don’t have the energy for it

https://zenhabits.net/no-time-healthy-eating/

How i Want to Live out my healtyhy eating lifestyle

1. No meal planning
2. No extensive grocery shopping
3. No new recipes or cooking techniques to learn
4. If you need to eat out, you should be able to
5. When you’re hungry, you should be able to eat something convenient

Sounds too good too be true... but... i'm going to do it!!

How to Start Out

• This month, you should pick one of these healthy alternatives each week:
• Drink water
• Drink tea (any kind, but unsweetened)
• Eat veggies as a snack (with hummus if you like) – carrots, broccoli pieces, cauliflower
• Eat fruits & raw nuts as a snack
• Have fruit or a vegetable as a side dish during one of your meals
• Add some nuts, berries and/or ground flaxseeds to your usual breakfast (cereal or oats, for example)

Marriage...

so... i'm going to be be brutally honest with myself on this one. As a child, i figured I'd

1. goto college
2. get a really cool awesome job that pays $$$$$$$
3. meet a really nice and handsome guy
4. get married
5. get EXTRA $$$$$ together
6. have 5 sons

my reality... is... different

1. goto college... 
• but I didn't finish till 10 years  later... and not in the degree i really wanted
2. I've had cool internships that paid $$$
• no job to this date has been really cool or awesome
• and the pay was just enough to no panhandle... but i AM tempted
• DREAM ABOUT HOW TO... get a really cool awesome job that pays $$$$$$$
3. meet a really nice and handsome guy
4. I've meet nice and handsome guys...
• but they had different religious beliefs and that's important to ME
• the had a plethora of other women, girls and men? in the background and foreground
5. get married
• NOPE... the people who asked were WAaaaaaaAaaaay... too desparate
• or... were already married... they left that detail out... my fault for not asking... of course
6. get EXTRA $$$$$ together
• gotta wait for #5... there is still hope for this one
7. have 5 sons
• WELL... i have 1 daughter... 'nuff 'said

...and now... i wonder if marriage is even for me? i would like to be a part of the marriage isotope that works... but i have a growing suspision... it may not happen... and i'm good... i just need to work on the existing relationships I have and feed and nurture those. 

Miscellaneous Goals

This IS what i really wanna do

1. Discernment... Spiritual, Emotional, Financial
2. Play the Acoustic Spanish Guitar
• https://www.google.com/search?q=how+to+restring+a+guitar&rlz=1C1CHBF_enUS783US783&oq=how+to+restring+&aqs=chrome.0.0j69i57j0l4.6363j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8#kpvalbx=1
3. Be in a Music Video
4. Compete and win a ballroom dance competition... latin style
5. Long hair that is MINE!!
6. PhD Mechanical Engineering and inspire minorities... women and flavors alike
• robotics lab... work in one
• architecture degree... because its interesting and awesome
7. walk and talk with God in the cool of the day
1. be for real on one accord with GOD... like always
8. Fluent in Spanish and italian
9. Travel the World and the USA
• minimum 2 trips a year
10. Be independent of $$$ by maintaining more than enough
11. Be a MULTIMILLIONARE
• work from home until i can get my own office
12. Scholarship Fund for women by age group
• 20's... 25% of tuition
• 30's... 50% of tuition
• 40's... 75% of tuition
• 50's and beyond... get a full ride
13. Mentors for college students with MANDATORY bi-weekly check-in
• one meeting MUST be face to face!!
14. Churches for College Students -- reinforce or establish these programs
15. Set up trust fund for my family
• 1st time homeowners
• family improvement funds... biger houdsse for bigger family
• college for my descendents

The Modesto Manifesto

Here are the four key components of the Modesto Manifesto, along with notes that Cliff Barrows jotted down in their meeting:

1. Honesty: "It was resolved that all communications to media and to the church would not be inflated or exaggerated. The size of crowds and the number of inquirers would not be embellished for the sake of making -BGEA- look better."

2. Integrity: "It was resolved that financial matters would be submitted to a board of directors for review and facilitation of expenditures. Every local crusade would maintain a policy of 'open books' and publish a record of where and how monies were spent."

3. Purity: "It was resolved that members of the team would pay close attention to avoiding temptation—never being alone with another woman, remaining accountable to one another, etc. A practice of keeping wives informed of their activities on the road and helping them feel a part of any and all crusades they undertook would be encouraged."

4. Humility: "It was resolved that members of the team were never to speak badly of another Christian minister, regardless of his denominational affiliation or differing theological views and practices. The mission of evangelism includes strengthening the body of Christ as well as building it!"

Consulting Engineer... mucho más oportunidades

i do not want to be limited in what i do... yes i need a focus... but there i nothing i cannot do... i CAN'T limit myself... and i WON'T... here a a few opportunities to consider

1. rent a room or two in my house to finance my house... why not??
• https://www.airbnb.com
• someone is actually renting a tent in their backyard for $10/night... awesome
2. rent out my office space... my building space... and finance my dreams
3. website design and maintainence
4. to be continued

My Realest Really Real 🙏Prayer🙏

https://youtu.be/xUT4trsrBCw

God... My ever present help...

I was... Freaking Out inwardly... Because I could not find my headphones... I kept retracing my steps because I use them EVERYDAY. I decided to just calm down and use the ones u have... Yes... I have a backup pair... But I have just an eighteenth of an ounce of love for them... Anywho... I sat down to write my daily confessions and affirmations... And I found them... THANK YOU GOD. I didn't have to waste gas or spend money on something I already have. Thank you Lord. I really appreciate finding them.🎧

it's time to show up for the fight!!

its time to show up for the fight... and let GOD do what he does BEST... WIN

• fighting my enemy and my inner me

hear my prayer

Lord, praise and worship rehearsal was very anticlimactic... i was on time at 6pm... but no one else arrived until after i called them... so... i called at 6:20... they arrived at 6:40... i addressed a few issues... with standing in the corner due to corded microphones and being on time for service which means 9:30am for everyone... including myself. there was some defensiveness and qite a bit of reminiscing about what used to be done... i didn't like that because i was NOT here for the how it used to be stuff... i was allowed to just sing with  them whenever... but it felt different... at S. Ave.
Lord, fight this battle for me.

hAIR gOALS... vISUAL

https://theblessedqueens.com/tbq/hair-question-send-natural-hair-questions/

Body Goals

i saw my picture... again last week... and i did not like what I saw... the only person who can change what i see is me!! ...in the words of Effie White...

"I am changing...Trying every way I can... I'll be better than I am.

Seeing everything so clear...I'm gonna start right now right here."

and... in that spirit... my body goals are as follows...

• My Physical Goals
• sleek outline
• look less full around arms and chest
• no back fat
• no stomach fat
• no arm jiggle
• full split with either leg forward
• full straddle
• full range of motion
• swim suit - 2 piece confidance
• slimmer thighs
• no dimpled legs
• jog from home to forest hill and back by december 25th (5 miles)
• 10 miles round trip
• wear size 8 jeans/pants
• be a medium in tops/dress sizes
• where what ever i want
• My Physical Feeling Goals
• energetic
• limber
• no loss of breath

and... what i will do to achieve my boy goals... starting now...

• no sodas
• salads every other day
• green juice smoothies on Monday, Wednesday and Friday
• work out Mon, Wed, Fri mornings... 
• 5am workout eventually alternating between jogging and walking daily
• P90X night workout

of course this plan of action my augment and change BUT my goals ain't.

Jones means...

REJOICING. Such people have absolute personality and follow their mind instead of their heart. They have desires and work hard to fulfill their dreams.

so... i kinda read this book...

last week... i decided to choose a book to listen to. I really love hoopladigital.com because it free and it IS free. I thought this would be another "you can do it!! YES!! book. I was presently surprised... i will definitely be re-reading this book ALOT this year. Thank Rachel. i appreciate you honety and pain. thank you for sharing... and giving me hope.

Lord, Help.

This is not the life that I thought I was going to live... and to top it all off... my life has been stagnant for a while... I need change... But, separating myself?? I usually withdraw from everyone when I feel left out... But this cannot be my default response to hurt feelings.

Lord... I need you to quiet my spirit. So, I can hear you. Lord, I did not like when Apostle said that you don't talk that much. I just felt like... You do speak alot... But through different mediums and methods.

Lord... I'm going to be 40 years old... and I have what? What do I have to show for it? What have I done that is meaningful? How has my life gotten better? My life HAS to be more than being Veronica's mother.

I think that I really need to move. West Palm Beach... It's just not FOR me...

Psalms 119:97‭-‬100

Psalms 119:97‭-‬100 KJV
O how love I thy law! it is my meditation all the day.  Thou through thy commandments hast made me wiser than mine enemies: for they are ever with me.  I have more understanding than all my teachers: for thy testimonies are my meditation.  I understand more than the ancients, because I keep thy precepts.

Psalms 119:97‭-‬100 HCSB
How I love Your instruction! It is my meditation all day long. Your commands make me wiser than my enemies, for they are always with me. I have more insight than all my teachers because Your decrees are my meditation. I understand more than the elders because I obey Your precepts.

2018

Thank you Lord for your transformational and resurrection power that I witness right now in the land of the living. I completed a 7 day absolute and then 3 day Daniel fast... I made I hrough and now I am DEFINITELY question ALL my food choices.

Lord, I submit to your Lordship as the head of my life. I pledge to speak and listen and listen to you daily. Thank you for changing me and making me a new creature.

Lord, I know that you are reconstructing my life, friendships, familyships and prayer life. Thank you so much for not letting me forget about you and how awesome you are.

Love you,
Queen♛Tee♛

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