The Last Christmas Party 2021

 so... i went... i was excited and expecting lost of good music and food and laughs... i was disappointed... but why? As i look back over the evening... i realize i came in with the right spirit and intention. Made some folks laugh and i laughed too. food was pretty good. So... what made it turn left for me?

The gift exchange... they did the white elephant... its was supposed to be fun... but... the vibe changed drastically... to me... got me wondering if I am extra sensitive... I wasn't a part of it... but being near it felt yucky.

During and after the gift exchange everyone cliqued up and i was on my own. Now... let's be HONEST. I'm not the best socializer nor do i want to be... I just like having a vibe and certain ebery around me. Being in the pandemic and in my classroom as the main contributor to my environment has made me spoiled in a way... I need to learn how to navigate social stuff again.

I don't want to be in no man's land. I want to have friends that contribute to my life and me to theirs... and i DO have these folks. I was blindsided by the "you don't fit in with us" middle and high school flashback that occured at the end of the night.

Then, I also realized that I have vowed to spend more quiet time with God daily and i haven't. No need to lie or make it cute. I have been neglecting my quiet meditation time in God's presence through worship music and silence. I was NOT prepared or insulated enough in my spirit to handle last night's situation.

I have been praying for continual closeness with God and to hear HIS voice and choose HIS ways. I cannot renege and not continue this oath and promise that I made to God. No One made me do it. I said and I prayed that I would devote my life to seeking God in and through ALL things. 

Me having fun and seeking fulfilment and love and to be embraced by people who i do not spend ANY time with is a lunatic's fantasy.

I'm with God first. Then, through his lense and protection and provision, life is made beautiful and palatable and abundant.

Japan vs US Style Apartment

I am definitely overstimulated by my home and everything inside... join me as I transition from a USA clutterific style home to a japanese inspired... Marie Kondo minimalist sanctuary.

You Can Have What You Say... Do You Believe?

How in the world is is so hard to have child-like faith? At what age do you just stop believing? ...why are people excited and obliged to kill the hope nd wonder in children? You can have what you say? What should I be saying? What do I really want? Am I being selfish by wanting it? Should i be modest in my desires or truly express myself? Why do i often feel condemned when i speak to my patent? What is that about?

Well, here goes... What do I want? Fulfillment and satisfaction in my life. I want, for real, a truly powerful connection with God. I want to be God's friend. I want to... not just cuz I aint really around folk that much and can tend to be a bit of an introvert, but because... i have been hearing about how gifted I am... and i KNOW i am not using my gifts, or even aware of half of them. Like, what is it I am to be doing. I am a warrior with no battle, at times. I am bored and lazy in my mind, but that is not the realest, truest form of myself.

I want to love and be loved in return by a man of God with no mistress or girlfriends who can really have a true covenant relationship with me. I desire life, health, fun, music, exercise, travel, meaningful interactions, quality chill time, to be comfortably regimented. I don't want to waste my time any more with ungrateful folks/men who will never see my true value. I will not be diminished in speech or action by the man that I marry. I am not fully aware of our ministry, but God Will reveal it.

I don't want to be walking around in a haze oblivious to the move of God's spirit. Holy Spirit, i want us to be a team where you call and guide the shots. I will obey. I am a visionary and prophet of God who hears His voice and documents every word uttered to me.

I desire a life filled with color and pets and no bugs. I rebuke all distractions and time wasters that will try to attempt to block my destiny.

I want a two story home. No pool, full backyard, 2 persian/fluffy seal point cats, 2 puppies... yorkie/maltese. An all Black Jeep Wrangler.

Why Passive Income?? Money Declarations & Decisions

Money Declarations & Decisions
Risk comes from NOT knowing what you're doing.

I WILL take calculated and prayerfully safe risks =)

I will be fully retired by age 50!!

1. Why do I want to earn passive income?

• I want to be free. 
• I don't want to wait for the perfect time to buy a home.
• I want to be able to provide for my daughter's education, needs, scholastic duties
• I will make life decisions without the need to wait up or to save up or pay unnecessary dues.
• I want a home with pets that are fully insured and provided for.

2. How much passive income will it take for me to be financially free? (all bills covered)

• rent/mortagage $1500/month
• insurance/6 months $2000 approx. $333/month
• car payment $300/month
• gas money $75/month
• utilities $75/month
• phone $75/month
• clothes and shoes money $75/month
• savings $200/month
• KUMON $200/month
• family health insurance $300/month
• debt payments $400/month
• Grand Total Approximately $3600

3. What would you do with you time if you did not have to work?

• pursue all of my academic endeavors... my PhD in Mechanical Engineering
• travel with my family throughout the united states for 2 weeks at a time
• develop education endowment for my family
• take dance and guitar classes
• spend quality time with my daughter
• meditate, pray, achieve true nirvana
• setup/contribute to arts inspired aftercare programs 
• i would NEVER RETIRE!! (i'm already living my dream)

4. How much money would you love to save passively?

• I would love to save a minimum of $7000/week = $28000/month = $364000/year

hello... i'm still here... 2019 update

Good Morning...

well, well, well,  its been a mighty long time since we last spoke. A few things have changed in my life...

1. purchased EBA (elite blog academy)... havent started any assignments yet
• started the bootcamp... 
• need to complete the assignments
2. been feeling industrious...
• cleaned out my room partially... i can see the bed and part of the floor
• laundry is being whittled down to managable chunks
• using my planners weekly... working on using it daily
3. House Goals... Future Landlord
• minimalism inspired and infused decor!
• AirBNB to fund my dream home - rental Property used to pay mortgage and buy more rental opportunity properties
4. my life goals have reemerged as they always do around my birthday
• billlionaire business woman - thats who i am
• i have a EIN - working the kinks out
• my corporation's name is Umble Amazon Industries, Inc.
1. will be opening a bank account in my company name by April 15th
2. will start building business credit... ASAP
• purchased the website UmbleAmazon.com... i am excited... now its time to walk it out
5. PETS!! - puppies and persian kitties
6. been repairing my credit and looking at my finances... time to repair and stop hiding
7. been thinking about getting my PHD again
• the joint MS/PHD program at FAU
• re-evaluate my major/minor: Mechanical Engineering: Robotics & Animation
8. Entrepreneur: Wear the Word of God via InspirationAbbey
• inspiring.fun/funny messages on apparel and merchandise
• BBW: Billionaire Business Woman
9. Be A Billionaire Business Woman
10. My Business Profits will put me and Veronica through school
11. Set Up Endowments for
• my family scholarship plan/funds
• my family - 1st time homeowner plan/funds
• young woman mentor-ship village for - single women/mothers who wish to return to school and need a support system
12. Train up my daughter in the fear and admonition of the Lord
13. Be summertime fine year round!!
• I AM changing my diet, better quality of food, less empty calories
14. HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD CLEARLY

Body Goals

i saw my picture... again last week... and i did not like what I saw... the only person who can change what i see is me!! ...in the words of Effie White...

"I am changing...Trying every way I can... I'll be better than I am.

Seeing everything so clear...I'm gonna start right now right here."

and... in that spirit... my body goals are as follows...

• My Physical Goals
• sleek outline
• look less full around arms and chest
• no back fat
• no stomach fat
• no arm jiggle
• full split with either leg forward
• full straddle
• full range of motion
• swim suit - 2 piece confidance
• slimmer thighs
• no dimpled legs
• jog from home to forest hill and back by december 25th (5 miles)
• 10 miles round trip
• wear size 8 jeans/pants
• be a medium in tops/dress sizes
• where what ever i want
• My Physical Feeling Goals
• energetic
• limber
• no loss of breath

and... what i will do to achieve my boy goals... starting now...

• no sodas
• salads every other day
• green juice smoothies on Monday, Wednesday and Friday
• work out Mon, Wed, Fri mornings... 
• 5am workout eventually alternating between jogging and walking daily
• P90X night workout

of course this plan of action my augment and change BUT my goals ain't.

Irma has left the region...

     I have endured another hurricane and ALL I can say is... I have WITNESSED a MIRACLE!! God has been so beyond good to us in Royal Palm Beach. God kept all hurt harm and danger from us and I am ETERNALLY grateful. God spared us and I am grateful.

     During this season of uncertainty, I have been asking God why does he want me to be a praise an worship leader? Why does he want me to be a minister? For What? What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to tell these people. One thing I do know... I will be honest. I will do what I have promised to do. I will be obedient. It's a little niggling feeling about my destiny... What am I here for? What is my ministry? What in the world am I imparting to my daughter?

One day... at home depot... I was talking to the cashier and she said that I should look into deliverance ministry... so... I'll look into it... but if it ain't it... learning about it didn't hurt.

Hello 2017...

Meet my new body... This is how my stomach and silhouette will be by Christmas 2017. 💯💯💯

???

People always talking about you need to let this go... let that go... all I want to know is where in the Bible does God say "let it go and you'll be all right" where does that happen...

You Are What You Munch

Cool library book with quirky, culinary insight into personality. 💯

The Woman

...who helped me embrace my hair and its individuality through her own self expression. Thank you Lauryn. You helped me be me by being you.

Information Systems Technical Support Technician @Publix

ISTS Technicians keep store technology up and running so Publix can properly serve our customers.

Contributions

ISTS Technicians provide technical service support to Publix stores for a defined geographical territory. They do this by performing service calls, installations, upgrades and backups of software and hardware applications for computers and printers. ISTS Technicians also troubleshoot software and hardware failures and identify network problems. Another important aspect of the ISTS Technician's job is to maintain customer confidentiality regarding HIPAA, debit and credit payment records, PIN security, and ATM records.

Qualifications we look for

• Associates degree in Computer Science or equivalent experience
• One year of PC/Technical support experience
• Be at least 20 years of age
• Possess valid driver license and maintain an excellent driving record
• Knowledge of Active Directory
• Knowledge of IT hardware and industry standards
• Knowledge of Windows XP / Windows 7
• Ability to troubleshoot issues
• Basic cable management skills
• Certifications in the field of electronics or Computer Science such as Cisco Certification, A+ Certification, Microsoft Certified Systems Engineer, HP Certification, or Lexmark Certification
• Knowledge of Publix retail store operations
• Experience using problem reporting and ticketing systems
• Experience supporting Active Directory, GPO, OU - access, rights, permissions
• Good organizational, time management, problem solving and analytical skills
• Excellent verbal and written communication skills
• Ability to work independently and as part of a team
• Ability to be flexible and handle a high volume of work accurately
• Ability to work under pressure to meet deadline
• Ability to work evenings, weekends and holidays as needed
• Ability to lift up to 75 lbs
• Ability to work well with others and be a team member
• Obvious enthusiasm, initiative and pride in work

How to apply

Please go to the Publix Jobs Center to begin searching our openings.

Get a...

Better JOBB

My NEW Hometown

Did a few quizzes online...

Possible Engineering Capstone Project

• Design a contraption that will guarantee a majority male sea turtles being born/hatched.
• are certain beaches just destined to produce females while other are dstined to produce males?
• what ha happend to the predetermined "male-beaches"
• too many females being hatched? are we really sure?
• how to monitor the amount surviving to adulthood and mating?

The time is now

Positive Thinking about myself and my circumstances because Christ has overcome all forms of death (sin/condemnation/negativity)

Proverbs 14:12 and additional meditation medication

Proverb:There is a way which seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death.

Hebrews 5:14 AMP
But solid food is for full-grown men, for those whose senses and mental faculties are trained by practice to discriminate and distinguish between what is morally good and noble and what is evil and contrary either to divine or human law.

1 Kings 3:9 AMP
So give Your servant an understanding mind and a hearing heart to judge Your people, that I may discern between good and bad. For who is able to judge and rule this Your great people? [James 1:5.]

http://bible.com/8/1ki.3.9.AMP
http://bible.com/8/heb.5.14.AMP
http://bible.com/8/pro.14.12.AMP

Yesterday's Sermon... Recapped by Bishop Jakes

word of request is something DELIGHTFUL

A word of command!! ...not so much...

You may miss a miracle Cuz you like requests BUT God makes a demand!! Forget them lil insignificant feelings.

Respect words of command!

#1-Righteous Request
#2-Remarkable Reach
#3-Ridiculous Results

I'm done.

I hate casual sex...cause ain't nothing casual about it...Before it your lonely and after it your miserably lonely...

I deserve to be loved. Period.

Does this REALLY matter?

Lost weight!! ...does body mass index really matter

Back to school!! 12k in loans is available yearly ≈ 20 classes per year

Get errrrr done!