My Juneteenth Revelation - Tulsa & Rosewood Massacres

Remember... It is NOT "Black people just don't like each other" or "Black folks ain't got no ambition" or "We don't work together like other cultures" 

We have been SYSTEMATICALLY and INSTITUTIONALLY terrorized and attacked for at LEAST 2 centuries in the U.S. of A.

DO NOT believe the propaganda and lies... Find your tribe... Unite with them... Build that school... that business... that CITY you have always dreamed of living in!!

WE ARE... WE CAN... WE WILL.. and WE HAVE OVERCOME... We did it before... WE'LL DO IT AGAIN!  

No Time Wasted...

Lord... after watching Beyonce, Taylor Swift and Quincy Jones... i felt convicted for not living up to my fullest potential... but i cling to the words of the Apostle that NO TIME has been wasted... and what the cankor worm and palmer worms ate up... WILL BE... and IS RESTORED.

...scripture included... cuz i love the Bible...

Joel 2 KJV

21 Fear not, O land; be glad and rejoice: for the Lord will do great things.

22 Be not afraid, ye beasts of the field: for the pastures of the wilderness do spring, for the tree beareth her fruit, the fig tree and the vine do yield their strength.

23 Be glad then, ye children of Zion, and rejoice in the Lord your God: for he hath given you the former rain moderately, and he will cause to come down for you the rain, the former rain, and the latter rain in the first month.

24 And the floors shall be full of wheat, and the vats shall overflow with wine and oil.

25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

26 And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.

27 And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the Lord your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed.

Real Talk... Self Esteem...

       I think that I've always liked myself, but never viewed myself as beautiful. I've looked at other women and seen beauty. I have gotten dressed up and felt nice, but the only accolades came from the dude i don't like, mad shady and disrespectful and thirsty. I know i can look good at times, but its just not all the time. I need help on this.
       When i first went to college, at Howard University. There were so many beautiful women that I, literally, gave up. I just gave up trying to look good. I figured, and still do, if i am brutally honest with myself, what's the use? How can I compete? I am not exotic. I don't have long hair. I dont have wonderful skin. I don't have dimples. I am not from somewhere else. What is it about me that attracts? Nothing.
       The funny thing is... when i did dress up and fix up... i got attention from men and that TERRIFIED me. I'm cool with being quirky, but beautiful? sexy? That scares me. How can i exist as a beautiful, sexy, intelligent woman when... i'm not feeling it.
       There were a few guys who fed my self esteem, genuinely, but with such a deficit in my self esteem... it wasnt lasting nourishment. What in the world? What in the world do I want? How do I really want and deserve to feel about myself... just me... without input? How do i choose to love myself and see the woman GOD created as a vision of loveliness... As of right now, I am seeking a deeper relationship with God and being brutally honest with myself about my truth and true feelings and reactions. i will not sugar-coat my reality or ignore and brush off growth.
       Yes, I want attention from men. Yes, I want men to look at me as see beauty, not just a heifer on the street, but why? Why am i seeking recognition from strangers? ...and at the same time... won't do or keep up my hair/make-up/beauty regimens.

How do I want to feel about myself?

• I will love my body and my face.
• I will exercise and have muscle tone and definition, because having a strong body makes me feel good internally and externally.
• I will do/fix up my hair... BEFORE leaving the house.
• I will look my best and get rid of unflattering clothes I don't want or don't need to wear.
• I will talk to God and MORE IMPORTANTLY listen to HIM about what to do with all of these feeling, emotions, idiosyncrasies within myself.
• 5780 - AYIN PEY - The year of the MOUTH 2020
• I will make daily confessions about who I am and how I feel about myself.
• I will BE ShaTina... not just think about her... as if in a faded memory from long ago.
• I am a fearfully, wonderfully, beautifully made woman BECAUSE I AM made me.

Why Passive Income?? Money Declarations & Decisions

Money Declarations & Decisions
Risk comes from NOT knowing what you're doing.

I WILL take calculated and prayerfully safe risks =)

I will be fully retired by age 50!!

1. Why do I want to earn passive income?

• I want to be free. 
• I don't want to wait for the perfect time to buy a home.
• I want to be able to provide for my daughter's education, needs, scholastic duties
• I will make life decisions without the need to wait up or to save up or pay unnecessary dues.
• I want a home with pets that are fully insured and provided for.

2. How much passive income will it take for me to be financially free? (all bills covered)

• rent/mortagage $1500/month
• insurance/6 months $2000 approx. $333/month
• car payment $300/month
• gas money $75/month
• utilities $75/month
• phone $75/month
• clothes and shoes money $75/month
• savings $200/month
• KUMON $200/month
• family health insurance $300/month
• debt payments $400/month
• Grand Total Approximately $3600

3. What would you do with you time if you did not have to work?

• pursue all of my academic endeavors... my PhD in Mechanical Engineering
• travel with my family throughout the united states for 2 weeks at a time
• develop education endowment for my family
• take dance and guitar classes
• spend quality time with my daughter
• meditate, pray, achieve true nirvana
• setup/contribute to arts inspired aftercare programs 
• i would NEVER RETIRE!! (i'm already living my dream)

4. How much money would you love to save passively?

• I would love to save a minimum of $7000/week = $28000/month = $364000/year

hello... i'm still here... 2019 update

Good Morning...

well, well, well,  its been a mighty long time since we last spoke. A few things have changed in my life...

1. purchased EBA (elite blog academy)... havent started any assignments yet
• started the bootcamp... 
• need to complete the assignments
2. been feeling industrious...
• cleaned out my room partially... i can see the bed and part of the floor
• laundry is being whittled down to managable chunks
• using my planners weekly... working on using it daily
3. House Goals... Future Landlord
• minimalism inspired and infused decor!
• AirBNB to fund my dream home - rental Property used to pay mortgage and buy more rental opportunity properties
4. my life goals have reemerged as they always do around my birthday
• billlionaire business woman - thats who i am
• i have a EIN - working the kinks out
• my corporation's name is Umble Amazon Industries, Inc.
1. will be opening a bank account in my company name by April 15th
2. will start building business credit... ASAP
• purchased the website UmbleAmazon.com... i am excited... now its time to walk it out
5. PETS!! - puppies and persian kitties
6. been repairing my credit and looking at my finances... time to repair and stop hiding
7. been thinking about getting my PHD again
• the joint MS/PHD program at FAU
• re-evaluate my major/minor: Mechanical Engineering: Robotics & Animation
8. Entrepreneur: Wear the Word of God via InspirationAbbey
• inspiring.fun/funny messages on apparel and merchandise
• BBW: Billionaire Business Woman
9. Be A Billionaire Business Woman
10. My Business Profits will put me and Veronica through school
11. Set Up Endowments for
• my family scholarship plan/funds
• my family - 1st time homeowner plan/funds
• young woman mentor-ship village for - single women/mothers who wish to return to school and need a support system
12. Train up my daughter in the fear and admonition of the Lord
13. Be summertime fine year round!!
• I AM changing my diet, better quality of food, less empty calories
14. HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD CLEARLY

Miscellaneous Goals

This IS what i really wanna do

1. Discernment... Spiritual, Emotional, Financial
2. Play the Acoustic Spanish Guitar
• https://www.google.com/search?q=how+to+restring+a+guitar&rlz=1C1CHBF_enUS783US783&oq=how+to+restring+&aqs=chrome.0.0j69i57j0l4.6363j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8#kpvalbx=1
3. Be in a Music Video
4. Compete and win a ballroom dance competition... latin style
5. Long hair that is MINE!!
6. PhD Mechanical Engineering and inspire minorities... women and flavors alike
• robotics lab... work in one
• architecture degree... because its interesting and awesome
7. walk and talk with God in the cool of the day
1. be for real on one accord with GOD... like always
8. Fluent in Spanish and italian
9. Travel the World and the USA
• minimum 2 trips a year
10. Be independent of $$$ by maintaining more than enough
11. Be a MULTIMILLIONARE
• work from home until i can get my own office
12. Scholarship Fund for women by age group
• 20's... 25% of tuition
• 30's... 50% of tuition
• 40's... 75% of tuition
• 50's and beyond... get a full ride
13. Mentors for college students with MANDATORY bi-weekly check-in
• one meeting MUST be face to face!!
14. Churches for College Students -- reinforce or establish these programs
15. Set up trust fund for my family
• 1st time homeowners
• family improvement funds... biger houdsse for bigger family
• college for my descendents